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Yet another of those experiences I have had on orkut. Very different. I stepped out of something for the first time.

Someone of ma college. An year younger to me. From the same branch I.T. Just that we passed out a year before their batch did. Met her on orkut. Phir pata laga that I do not know her from college. That was pretty obvious for the kind of person I am [:-D]. And as expected she remembers me. All thanks to ma very peculiar outlook. [:-D]. I was the sole Surd of ma college. At least till I was there I was the only one.

I’d call her Angel. Why an Angel. Mein ni bata raaa .. [:-P] [:-D]. So me as always bumped her with loads of scraps. She replied a few. A few went unanswered.

It a real pain if some of ma scraps went unanswered. And I know I aint the only person to feel this way. There are many in the crown of orkut users who get annoyed when some scrap is not answered. I don’t know what is wid me or orkut. But all if a sudden I have started to express so much on orkut that I have never done before. Never in ma whole life. I have forgot that orkut is a Public place. hmm … scary. But let it be, till it back fires. I am willing to take these chances for the sake of good times I am having. And all these learning experiences.

Well I know ma way of talkin (tone that I use in chats and orkut) is very wild. I get high. I express alot. Ma words I guess are full of emotions and energy. It sometimes hits people with a negative sense. But I guess this is the best way. Being expressive [:-D]. Cauz you can make your presence felt ony thru your words, nothing else.

Angel did not used to reply that often. I was about to declare her a dead connection and remove her. Once she told me that I am wild. and that ma scraps are barely understandable. Hmm I accept that My Lord [:-s]. And then some of my scraps went unanswered. Perhaps something that pissed me off was that at that time I was so god dayem busy with so many friends online and so many scraps to reply in one day. I was spending hours and hours online just to reply and scrap people. Yet I had time to scrap some of those who aint the regular once on orkut. And then ma scraps go unanswered. Its not they they aren’t scraping at all. It was just that she didn;t cared to scrap me. Why specifically me .. hmm .. yet unknow.

Nahiiiin … abi kissi ne Subway yaad dila diya .. and ma mouth is watering now .. aab mujhe kal khana padega .. Subway Chicken Ham .. [=P~]

One good day. I let my impulse drive ma actions. And I deleted her from ma friends list .. and I let her know this thru one last scrap. It aint the 1st time that I have acted out of impulse. Its in me to decide on my intuition. I know these are two different things. But I guess for me, they both walk the same path.. the same direction.

She replied back. I did not expected that. Not atleast from a gurl. Hmm .. good bye words. When I went back to see wat exactly my last scrap was I was taken aback ti find that ma scrao was cleard from that SB. Hmm I realized, I was too rude. So I scrapped again to clear the mess I had created. Then followed a series of emails. Just to know that was I wrong/rude in my last scrap which angel deleted from her SB. well the mail trail below speaks it all.

Why am I bringing this out today. I Angel online today. We talked. Alot .. and that reminded me of this incident. Here is the email trail:

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From: Alien I
To: Rose_Angel
Sent: Tuesday, November 7, 2006 11:43:09 PM
Subject: Humble Question

Hello Angel,

Greetings!

Hope you are having a good time.

I am so sorry I am yet once again bothering you. But somehow, I am fixated. Not at you. But at the fact that you have deleted my Last 3 scraps. If I am remembering correctly. You have deleted them. And none of the scraps around them. Just My scraps.

I am sorry, but as you pointed out once. I am always on a high. Certainly not in person. But that is an altogether a different story. Which I am in no mood to discuss and you are not interested in.

You know, written words mean more to me, then those that are spoken. I have realized this very recently. I so much rely on the need for a written communication over personal meetings and phone calls. The emotions that can be shared from the written words is something that I have a hunger for now. Badly. That is all I expect from Orkut. Nothing more; A good time to share feelings, thoughts, all through a Scrapbook.

Back to the critical issue. If at all I had been generous to you on orkut, or even otherwise (Least chances .. we never met outside Orkut), can I know the reason you have deleted my scraps?

This might seem a very ordinary thing to you, to delete scraps. But to me it aint that simple. My respect for myself is on stake. I never have received any scrap from any one saying that my so and so scrap was bad. I have always maintained sufficient decency. So I need to know the reason that tempted you to delete my scraps. I need to know this for self improvement.

This is all a favour m asking you .. so please let me know reason for deleting these scraps.

Warm Regards!
Alien I