Alien I View

Ages since I have published a blog. Time, emotions and thoughts were against it.

I don’t believe in luck! Rather BAD luck. Apparently when things started going wrong in series, one after the other, life, what was assumed more earned and less lucky, appeared to be flawed.

I just got a sense of my own words, that I always used to speak, but never seems to believe. “I have been very lucky through out my life”

The luck has apparently ran out. Appears the same for Rafa. As I am keying in this entry, Rafa has already lost a set, lost the break he had in 2nd set at 5-5 and now this set looks like going into a tie break (French Open).

One spends so much time and energy understanding others that in the process forgets oneself, and one’s own needs and unclawed expectations. What you think about is what you start believing and expecting.

Did anyone figure out the reason behind Nadal placing his racquet on his towel and his one big and one small water bottles kept at the exact same position in front of his player chair in every match he plays? I refuse to believe it is mere superstition. And he just won the 2nd set in a Tie Breaker. So we are back in business.

So, I picture myself as confident, care-a-dayem person with a hint superiority complex. The mirror on the wall dosen’t tell me this is true any more. Now its inferiority complexed, attention seeking, struggling to prove ‘I-am-Mr.-Always-Right’ person.

That is my problem! But whats with the people I knew! Why are they turning away? Its now I don’t care what you care about, just I care what I want, be it something I do not need or deserve.

“Deserve”

New Balls!!
I stop givin a dayem! “amazing urconscience is so dead” . I call quit!

-=oNo=-

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