-=oNo=-

To question: Why do we have to get married if we do not understand a marriage or a love relationship? But in contradiction: How do we know what *Sushi* tastes like till we have actually tasted it?

Am I really the friggin cuckoo here!????

Why is a cup of coffee so bloody harmful? Why the fuck I can’t speak shamelessly in public?

The Mental Defective League! Self righteous Self obsessed ranting prick! Fuck redemption, fuck damnation, fuck guilt, fuck repent!!!

Rebel .. Cerebral!!!!

Strength of love is that it can make you do things out of your capacity. Weakness .. it can’t make you endure them. Passion can! But then passion has its own weaknesses.. thought, temperament, patience, conscience .. all compromised under Passion. For once you can’t make me believe that I am wrong! You understand love, and society and how things happen, for a change understand how I want things to happen, for a change be that motivation for me to make that change in ways of this world to satisfy me!!

-=oNo=-

I will always have my interpretations of the things. I may be wrong but let it be.

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

2010 here I come!

-=oNo=-

“Not sure if I can say strongest” .. some would say “hmm.. that’s interesting”. But than if you’d know me. I believe I am a very sensitive and emotional guy, though I am excellent in facading it all away. Par Pa to mere Baap hain na. He is extremely sensitive and emotional when it comes to family, especially both me and bro.

Fauji hain Pa mere. Naval Officer. A master at his work. You should see him command. I have grown up seeing these two sides of his. Hardcore Naval Officer and so soft heart Person outside uniform. Shake his hand and you’ll be surprised to find a soft hand. One always expects a Defense Officer to have rough hands. Well that is something I have inherited from him.

Sometimes I wonder how Pa managed when both me and bro were away from home in hostels with no mobile phones or instant communication facility. Right now we are like 2 hours drive away and though we get to see him over the weekends and sometimes only in fortnights, he’s like missing us extremely and always. And that is because I hardly call him up. He does many a times. But every time I fail to call back. Well that’s me. Something I’ll change starting today.

I have been earning for 5 years now and still I am so so dependent on him. For smallest of my works. I don’t even need to tell him, he’d know it all by himself. And I tell you – Pa and his ways of getting things done. Give him a problem, anything, and he would have a solution. And so so so much energy that I’d never have. (He’s also the most physically fit and mentally strong person in our family).

Pa – I’d fight you, scold you, not talk to you, forget to call you, but whatever it be .. I LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!

-=oNo=-

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change

Shiney: Speak ur heart out, u have nothing to loose
Alien_I: Who says I have nothing to lose?
Shiney: I don’t kno!
Alien_I: Do you seriously thing I have nothing to lose!?
Shiney: Yes, I think so..
Shiney: Maybe u dont
Alien_I: okay!
Alien_I: good!
Alien_I: I have nothing to loose!
Shiney: Haha
Alien_I: Thanks for reminding me!
Alien_I: I didn’t knew I am a free man!
Shiney:
Shiney: Khulla sand

Romance sheer delight how sweet
I gotta find me a girl to make my life complete
You can scratch my back, well get cozy and huddle
Ill lay down my jacket so you can walk over a puddle
Ill give you a rose, pull out your chair before we eat
Kiss you on the cheek and say ooh girl youre so sweet
Its deja vu whenever Im with you
I could go on forever telling you what I do
But where you at youre neither here or there
I swear I cant find you anywhere
Damn sure you aint in my closet, or under my rug
This love search is really making me bug
And if you know who you are why dont you make yourself seen
Take the chance with my love and youll find out what I mean
Fantasys can run but they cant hide
And when I find you Im gon pour all my love inside
I need love
I need love

Hopefully things are under control now. But now this leaves me with a .. amm .. thought! Am I the best man for this job!

Chat with Shiney:

(11:15:49 PM) Alien_I: These are the times when you wannna hold someone and tell them not to worry .. that you are there to take care of everything! ..
(11:16:16 PM) Alien_I: and ironically these are the only times that make you feel so helpless .. and hollow at the core!

It did scare me a little though! I was or will never be prepared for some such things. Ironic!

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

It’s a traffic jam when you’re already late
It’s a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It’s meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn’t it ironic… don’t you think
A little too ironic… and yeah I really do think…

It’s like rain on your wedding day
It’s a free ride when you’ve already paid
It’s the good advice that you just didn’t take
Who would’ve thought … it figures

-=oNo=-

Monday was the day she was dressed her ever best as far as my memory goes. Even today it was quite nice .. this is something I’d always admire .. always dressed perfectly.

-=oNo=-

Still at the office. Some one is playing this song on low volume in this cubical bay. I can hear the song word by word and that feeling just came flying back in. The same ol’ .. Bryan Adams ..

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It’s gettin’ better baby
No one can better this
I’m still hold on and you’re still the one
The first time our eyes met it’s the same feelin’ I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you’re feelin’ lonely.. don’t
You’re the only one I’d ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can’t stop lovin’ you
Don’t deny me

This pain I’m going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can’t stop loving you

-=oNo=-

That reminds me of the Joker:

Because some men aren’t looking for anything logical, like money. They can’t be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.

Just good sport!

-=oNo=-