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Nothing else matters – 2

Alien I — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 08:30:01 +0000

Apparently it was born out of need. I needed it. So I am trying to cut the need off. Letz see if we get this act together again. This time it won’t be for me need! Let this be for me as a person.

I will always have my interpretations of the things. I may be wrong but let it be.

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

2010 here I come!

-=oNo=-

My Pa Strongest!

Alien I — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:15:42 +0000

The age old phrase that doesn’t wanna phase out of our lives. Everyone has their own reasons and beliefs as to why “My daddy is strongest”. Me too. Not sure if I can say strongest, but certainly the most amazing and awesome Dads. The best that I can have and I could have asked for.

“Not sure if I can say strongest” .. some would say “hmm.. that’s interesting”. But than if you’d know me. I believe I am a very sensitive and emotional guy, though I am excellent in facading it all away. Par Pa to mere Baap hain na. He is extremely sensitive and emotional when it comes to family, especially both me and bro.

Fauji hain Pa mere. Naval Officer. A master at his work. You should see him command. I have grown up seeing these two sides of his. Hardcore Naval Officer and so soft heart Person outside uniform. Shake his hand and you’ll be surprised to find a soft hand. One always expects a Defense Officer to have rough hands. Well that is something I have inherited from him.

Sometimes I wonder how Pa managed when both me and bro were away from home in hostels with no mobile phones or instant communication facility. Right now we are like 2 hours drive away and though we get to see him over the weekends and sometimes only in fortnights, he’s like missing us extremely and always. And that is because I hardly call him up. He does many a times. But every time I fail to call back. Well that’s me. Something I’ll change starting today.

I have been earning for 5 years now and still I am so so dependent on him. For smallest of my works. I don’t even need to tell him, he’d know it all by himself. And I tell you – Pa and his ways of getting things done. Give him a problem, anything, and he would have a solution. And so so so much energy that I’d never have. (He’s also the most physically fit and mentally strong person in our family).

Pa – I’d fight you, scold you, not talk to you, forget to call you, but whatever it be .. I LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!

-=oNo=-

Nothin to lose

Alien I — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 03:53:43 +0000

Need more friends with wings
All the angels I know
Put concrete in my veins
I’d always walk home alone
So I became lifeless
Just like my telephone

There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change

Shiney: Speak ur heart out, u have nothing to loose
Alien_I: Who says I have nothing to lose?
Shiney: I don’t kno!
Alien_I: Do you seriously thing I have nothing to lose!?
Shiney: Yes, I think so..
Shiney: Maybe u dont
Alien_I: okay!
Alien_I: good!
Alien_I: I have nothing to loose!
Shiney: Haha
Alien_I: Thanks for reminding me!
Alien_I: I didn’t knew I am a free man!
Shiney:
Shiney: Khulla sand

Romance sheer delight how sweet
I gotta find me a girl to make my life complete
You can scratch my back, well get cozy and huddle
Ill lay down my jacket so you can walk over a puddle
Ill give you a rose, pull out your chair before we eat
Kiss you on the cheek and say ooh girl youre so sweet
Its deja vu whenever Im with you
I could go on forever telling you what I do
But where you at youre neither here or there
I swear I cant find you anywhere
Damn sure you aint in my closet, or under my rug
This love search is really making me bug
And if you know who you are why dont you make yourself seen
Take the chance with my love and youll find out what I mean
Fantasys can run but they cant hide
And when I find you Im gon pour all my love inside
I need love
I need love

stiff moment

Alien I — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 15:52:29 +0000

Somethings that I always find so hard .. so hard to handle! When they throw their tears at you! I don’t know when will I learn to handle tense moments like today. Nala was so upset that she had to call me up and cry over it. I guess it was a little my fault too, and also that I am not the right person to handle such situations. Gawsh I wanna so learn this.

Hopefully things are under control now. But now this leaves me with a .. amm .. thought! Am I the best man for this job!

Chat with Shiney:

(11:15:49 PM) Alien_I: These are the times when you wannna hold someone and tell them not to worry .. that you are there to take care of everything! ..
(11:16:16 PM) Alien_I: and ironically these are the only times that make you feel so helpless .. and hollow at the core!

It did scare me a little though! I was or will never be prepared for some such things. Ironic!

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

It’s a traffic jam when you’re already late
It’s a no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It’s meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn’t it ironic… don’t you think
A little too ironic… and yeah I really do think…

It’s like rain on your wedding day
It’s a free ride when you’ve already paid
It’s the good advice that you just didn’t take
Who would’ve thought … it figures

-=oNo=-

Satrangi re!

Alien I — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 16:54:13 +0000

Awesome as always .. Satrangi today! And even in such hard, full of pressure situation at work she was smiling bright!

Monday was the day she was dressed her ever best as far as my memory goes. Even today it was quite nice .. this is something I’d always admire .. always dressed perfectly.

-=oNo=-

No one can better this!

Alien I — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 14:24:23 +0000

1950 hrs:

Still at the office. Some one is playing this song on low volume in this cubical bay. I can hear the song word by word and that feeling just came flying back in. The same ol’ .. Bryan Adams ..

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It’s gettin’ better baby
No one can better this
I’m still hold on and you’re still the one
The first time our eyes met it’s the same feelin’ I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you’re feelin’ lonely.. don’t
You’re the only one I’d ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can’t stop lovin’ you
Don’t deny me

This pain I’m going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can’t stop loving you

-=oNo=-

Kill Zone 2: Vasari’s Palace – Fight against Radec

Alien I — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 17:56:15 +0000

Ahhhh Radec Army is making me go nuttzzz … They keep on falling in wave after wave .. Infantry to assassins to rpg launchers. I’ve been trying for two days now and I keep falling off on one wave or the others. Couldn’t even reach Radec so far. I am sure the final one on one battle with him would be one tough thing to finish … but alas i am only stuck at finishing off his army. Dayem why does the end always have to be this hard!!

That reminds me of the Joker:

Because some men aren’t looking for anything logical, like money. They can’t be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.

Just good sport!

-=oNo=-

Q3 Lives on!

Alien I — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 03:58:39 +0000

The good ‘ol “If it has two legs and moves, Frag it” still rules on! Now with Quake Live (http://www.quakelive.com/) . Only that it dosen’t work on my Linux PC yet. But .. lives on!

-=oNo=-

My “Lady in Red”

Alien I — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 21:35:07 +0000

Just unfortunate that I am too selfish. Some passions I hardly give up even for my own self. She was in red today. Oh and what a night! Did everything but dance with her!

I’ve never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
I’ve never seen you shine so bright
I’ve never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance
They’re looking for a little romance, given half a chance
I have never seen that dress you’re wearing
Or the highlights in your head that catch your eyes I have been blind

The lady in red is dancing with me cheek to cheek
There’s nobody here, it’s just you and me, It’s where I wanna be
But I hardly know this beauty by my side
I’ll never for get, the way you look tonight

I’ve never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
I’ve never seen you shine so bright you were amazing
I’ve never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled, It took my breath away
I have never had such a feeling
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as I do tonight

-=oNo=-

Cry baby!

Alien I — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 16:00:49 +0000

Back on the same track as always! Why can’t I stick to myself. Total uneasy mind. My dilemma .. I have to live through!

Anywayz, I have a regret. I don’t hope things will change, message was clear but we are two different people. I expect everyone to be like me! Unfortunate disappointment.

Yeah! I am always right! Egoless! Always correct.

We were in gurgaon this weekend. A typical base, big place, everything of need right across the street.

Aur yahaan to chhat pe more naache hein! Roz subah!

I completed first of my rhyming lines in this blog today. No one can read it except me though! Yet another private post!

-=oNo=-